wellll. no one is going to read this but i'm feeling. so i'm going to blog about it. i'm in a crappy mood. like a i should just give up my life is useless kinda feeling...but less emo. i'm not going to kill myself or anything lol. but i'm just stressed about stuff.
so..a little update:
i'm moving to Toronto in a couple months. May. kinda freaking out. i don't have an apartment or anything yet, and i'm not really sure how i'm going to survive without being able to cook or anything. and i'll probably get mugged or raped. or both.
Also i kinda feel like i have no friends. except for this guy at work i'm somewhat but not really seeing. but lately he's been a crazy obsessive freak so i'm trying to avoid him a little bit. My old bestfriend i barely ever talk to anymore..not really sure why and i get the feeling she doesn't really want to talk to me. probably because i'm so boring. i do have one great friend but he lives about 3 hours away at university and we've never really hung out. it's mostly an internet/msn/facebook kind of relationship. he's my ex-boyfriends best friend haha. take that asshole. juuuust kidding my ex isn't really an asshole.
anyway..i guess this is sort of making me feel a little better. i hope that when i get to Toronto my life kind of makes a turn for the better. i'm going to school to be a makeup artist for like movies/tv/theatre/etc. not just weddings. i hope i meet some really cool people and make new friends and have a good time :) hopefully i wont be too shy to do any of that. i think some people think i'm a stuck up bitch because i'm shy and never say anything . I'M NOT. i just don't know what to say. there's a quote that goes something like ..'i will never be bored because i refuse to be boring.' i wish i could be like that. i'd like to be able to just come up with something crazy and fun to do whenever i'm bored but i usually just watch tv or go on facebook. i wish i was interesting. maybe things will change when i move. but really i shouldn't wait til then, i should start now. but there's not really anything to do in this town..which is probably why it has such a high teen pregnancy rate. yeah you like how i just threw that little tid bit in there ? lol
i guess i'm gonna go try and find something exciting to do ..at home. on a Monday at 10 pm. wish me luck :)
--peace;kmc
Monday, March 1, 2010
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