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dear life, you suck.
xo kelsey.

oh life, you kidder ;)

wellll. no one is going to read this but i'm feeling. so i'm going to blog about it. i'm in a crappy mood. like a i should just give up my life is useless kinda feeling...but less emo. i'm not going to kill myself or anything lol. but i'm just stressed about stuff.
so..a little update:
i'm moving to Toronto in a couple months. May. kinda freaking out. i don't have an apartment or anything yet, and i'm not really sure how i'm going to survive without being able to cook or anything. and i'll probably get mugged or raped. or both.
Also i kinda feel like i have no friends. except for this guy at work i'm somewhat but not really seeing. but lately he's been a crazy obsessive freak so i'm trying to avoid him a little bit. My old bestfriend i barely ever talk to anymore..not really sure why and i get the feeling she doesn't really want to talk to me. probably because i'm so boring. i do have one great friend but he lives about 3 hours away at university and we've never really hung out. it's mostly an internet/msn/facebook kind of relationship. he's my ex-boyfriends best friend haha. take that asshole. juuuust kidding my ex isn't really an asshole.
anyway..i guess this is sort of making me feel a little better. i hope that when i get to Toronto my life kind of makes a turn for the better. i'm going to school to be a makeup artist for like movies/tv/theatre/etc. not just weddings. i hope i meet some really cool people and make new friends and have a good time :) hopefully i wont be too shy to do any of that. i think some people think i'm a stuck up bitch because i'm shy and never say anything . I'M NOT. i just don't know what to say. there's a quote that goes something like ..'i will never be bored because i refuse to be boring.' i wish i could be like that. i'd like to be able to just come up with something crazy and fun to do whenever i'm bored but i usually just watch tv or go on facebook. i wish i was interesting. maybe things will change when i move. but really i shouldn't wait til then, i should start now. but there's not really anything to do in this town..which is probably why it has such a high teen pregnancy rate. yeah you like how i just threw that little tid bit in there ? lol
i guess i'm gonna go try and find something exciting to do ..at home. on a Monday at 10 pm. wish me luck :)

--peace;kmc

long taime no blog.

hello everyone, or no one, or whoever

i haven't blogged in a while, i guess i've been busy.
so it's summer, but i've barely experienced it because i work all the time which sucks but i really need the money. i work at mcdonalds, i know ew right ? .. well not really its not as bad as i thought it would be. lately i've been working nights (4ish-12ish) every weekend all weekend and a few days during the week. not good for my social life, i haven't even seen my best friend this summer and its already half over. BUT we're going to diner nd a movie on sunday so that should be fun :)

also, i've got a new boyfriend :) we've been going out for a few weeks he is the best. he lives almost an hour away tho so that kinda sucks. we don't get to see each other much because of distance and we both work but we manage <3

so i'm kinda stressin' about the whole toronto thing i have no where near enough money and i need to apply soon, and what if i don't get in ? that would suck. i've kinda been lokin g for makeup schools in montreal or something cause taht would be a hell of a lot cheaper probably and a lot closer to npo (the boyfriend). he's going to school for music ..he plays the drums :) & guitar a little bit. he's also a crazy fool.

anyway, i should probably goget ready for work -.- money, money, money. i work til fricken midnight tonight. how am i supposed to have a life when i work til midnight ? i havethis weekend off tho so hopefully something fun will go down. later gators.

-peace;kmc.

so i found a new cure for the hiccups..

long time no blog !

so yeah ..new cure for the hiccups ? .. get pissed at your unbelievably slow/incapable computer and then receive a crazy call from an unknown number and they will be gone !

yeah i just got this call from some man who's been calling ever now and then and usually i just don't pick up & he just leaves a message. so i listen to them and what does he say ? .. NO EFFING IDEA! i don't know if he's speaking another language or if he just can't talk. so today i answered and he went on in his gibberish and i'm like ' yeah .. i think you have to wrong number..' then hung up then just now he called back -.- i did not answer.

so do you ever forget the password to sites that you don't use very often ? .. i do. and you know what i hate ? .. the gosh darn 'i forgot my password' process, it takes forever and you have to follow 34324 different links and have 34837543 different windows opened. i hate it. i had to do this for blogger.con cause i haven't blogged in a while and it took like 15 minutes a) becasue i was positive i didn't have the wrong password & cause i was trying other ones i thought it could be b) because i had to do the whole password dance and c) because my computer is so damn slow. and the only reason why this password is different than all my other passwords is because of the stupid password strength thinger. i dont' care if my password is weak ..no one probably reads thsi anyway ! lol.

this blog is getting semi long .. oh well, more to love ;)
today was my last day of highschool ! too bad no one shows up so its pointless lol...but still i went cause i'm a good student and cause i had to write a french test. but i did sneak to walmart with jpo during second period cause we weren't gonna do anything in that class.
things i'll miss about highschool:
- standing for oh canada. (when am i ever gonan do that again on a daily basis?)
- seeing all my friends everyday
- the drama (you know you'll secretly miss it too)
- people watching/dissing/stalking haha :P
- the nook/crany/heater area...i'll explain some day.
- classes spent doing absolutely no work and jsut talking/texting having wonderful times.
- etc.

..here comes the cheesy yearbook signature.

have a great summer :)!

-peace; kmc

ehhhh....?

my issues:

so. my bff is gone for a week and i'm left lonely.
i kinda feel like i have no friends ..which isn't really true but thats how i'm feeling.
i think i might die. ..not really.

prom's soon. got my dress :) i like it very much. its peach and lovely. i'm going with my ex boyfriend. should be sufficiently awkward lol. i'll letcha know how it goes.

boys frustrate me. they talk to you then stop. then talk to you then give you one word replies. then stop. then talk to you only cause you're talking to them then stop. and i'm fed up. maybe i'll be a lesbien. noooo i like boys too much. (no offense to lesbiens). why can't it just be simple.
why you gotta go and make things so complicated ? I see the way you're actin' like you're somebody else Gets me frustrated. yup i just quoted an avril lavigne song.

ahhh christ. ..not you.

oh and i want to go to toronto to be a makeup artist and hav no money. yay for my lifeeee.


ps. sorry for this blog of down-ness and depression.
-peace;kmc

prom = excitment

soo prom is in a couple months and i haven't got my dress yet. yikes
but never fear..i've got connections. lol well, not really but whatever i wanted to say that and i did.
my mom's dad's common law partner woman thing's granddaughter has a bunch of dresses that she said i could try on. yeah..try figuring that sentence out haha. one of them is from new york i guess :)!! i haven't seen them yet but i'm super excited about them. i hope they're really nice and that they fit.

in other news:
i might be going to ontario to visit my family in septemberrrr !! i haven't been up there in a long time and i'm excited about that too :) i love going to visit my grandparents up there cause i don't get to see them very often. and i've got cousins and aunts and uncles there too; they all rock.
my grandparents have the coolest house and a huge basement with a bar, bongo drums and lots of fishtanks (fish included). And they have this table with a real (dead) alligator in it and when i was younger it always scared me lol. and one christmas we went up there and all the cousins had to sleep in the basement and i was like pooping my pants about sleeping with the alligator in the room haha.

stay tuned for more prom news. cause you know this is a newscast...
i'll fo sho be describing my dress :)

-peace; kmc

FML is amazing.

soooo, i'm in a super bad mood, here is a list as to why:

1) too much effing homework
2) teachers giving a novel of notes that you need to know for the test the next day.
3) stupid boyfriends
4) teachers not assigning the books you've been hoping for because your sister says they are amazing.
5) poverty.

so i was kind of kidding about that last one..but poverty does suck. adopt a child.
so anyway getting back to the title of this blogfest. www.fmylife.com is the greatest discovery since chocolate. go to it right now, it's hilarious. my friend dni told me about it. basically it's people posting events in their lives that truely suck ass. but they're still hilarious. here's an exerpt:

Today, my cat got into the bathroom while I was changing my tampon. As I was throwing the applicator away, I felt a sharp pain around my vagina; I looked down to find him swatting at the tampon string. FML hahaha, funny :)

it definitely makes you feel better about your life. so if you're feeling rather shitty like me go read about these other peoples lives and you'll feel slightly better...at their expense, which is kinda part of the fun :)

-peace; kmc